Monday, November 1, 2010


I know that it has been a long time since I have made my last post but here I am today writing this post. I have kind of been in a slump lately and not quite sure why, I mean there have been some reasons why I couldn't go to the gym one day but other times I just haven't felt like it and that't not what I want to portray to my kids or to my followers. The summer kind of started it, the boys not wanting to spend 2 hours a day at the gym while mommy works out. Now don't let me portray them as not supportive because they are, it's just they had some issues with other kids and kind of put them off of coming to the Y. So then of course other things come up that are personal that couldn't be avoided so I couldn't make it to the gym. My weight though did stay steady I at least managed to stay at my goal weight, neither going up or down. So that was a good thing because I continued to eat healthy. I also did continue to volunteer at the gym working on the desk and doing my aquafit every friday with the program director.

So September comes along and it's back to school time so I'm busy getting the boys settled into there new school so the first week I think I managed to make it to the gym 2 days and both those days I was volunteering so only working out once in a week. When for months I was use to working out almost everyday what a change and my body was definately feeling it. So for the month of September things just kept coming up and making it very difficult to go and work out but I would at least try to make it on Wednesday to volunteer and then on Friday  for aquafiit as I'm still trying to get certified. So maybe working out 2-3 times a week which is better than nothing.

I was talking with this lady from the Y who is a member as well and we were discussing her week and how she had, had a bad week and she felt she had cheated on her diet. I told her its not cheating we are human and aloud to have a few moments of weakness. If it continues to use her support system and she said thank you but she really doesn't have much of a support system as her parents buy her alot of the things she ate. That her support is people at the Y, so I suggested she go and check out my blog. Then I realized I'm telling her everything I know and maybe I should take my own advice that I just gave her. So a few days later she came to me and said Dana I just read your blog last night and you have given me so much inspiration and determination to get back to. Which of course I then realized she was my inspiration to get back to it again. Then I realized it wasn't just her that I inspired to get back to it it was me. I inpsired myself, somewhat of a kick in the ass.

October comes and i'm gun ho on getting back into my routine I developed back in Febuary. So Monday comes and I have a child home sick, REALLY ARE YOU KIDDING ME. Tuesday comes and everything is good to go and have an amazing workout in the pool but I still have no motivation to go upstairs and do the weights but I figure right now if I get my cardio in im better off than I was all of September. Week goes by and I was there everyday working out. Woo hoo I felt great.

While I was working on the desk one day An old friend had come in and we were both surprised to see each other let alone at the gym. I came around the counter and we both were amazed at how well we both looked she had lost some weight as well. So I invited her to check out my blog as well. Then a few minutes later another person I hadn't seen in a few years came in and we got to talking and catching up and I invited her to come out on Friday to my aquafit.

So Friday comes along and I had to be in the pool that day as they were certifying another instructor so we were talking and working out and then continued to talk after and we talked more about what she had been up to over the last few years. We realized that we had a common interest, well not so much interest but a common factor I guess you would call it. Anyways I continued to run into her and one day she was like oh I don't want to go upstairs and workout and I told I know the feeling I have been there a few times. I told her my story about the other Y woman and she motivated me along with my blog address.

I haven't seen her since I gave her the blog address so I can't wait to find out what she thought and I hope it helped her.

I apoligize to all my supporters and friends for not being on here and posting anything recently and I promise that I will be on here more often again posting.

Thank you for all your support friends and family

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Up and Down

Ups and Downs of weight loss. Is it normal or not normal?

I think for most it is normal. It is something that every person trying to lose weight goes through and for some they never recover.

I remember when I was a teenager I joined weight watchers at my moms school, we would meet after school. There were bunch of us about 15 men and women and I was one of 3 people who reached there goal weight. I was so happy.

It didn't take long for me once I was out of the program that I started to put the weight back on. Weight loss programs are great when you are going through the battle to lose the weight but once you have reached your goals then boom they turn there back on you. They disappear, gone in a flash.

So once again I put all the weight back on and now I was pregnant with my first child. For most overweight women it is also alot harder to lose the weight let alone any baby weight you have gained. So here I was after my baby was born at a even higher weight than before. So back to the drawing board and another weight loss clinic. This time I went with my mom and her friend. Once again I was the one to lose the weight I didn't reach my goal but I was the closest.

I told you that the last 2 times I went with my mom to these programs and the funny thing about that is my mom is 5 feet if that and weighs soaking wet 120. Yet here I am 5'2 and weighing over 200 pounds. I had to live with my mom complaining all these years how FAT she was. Really come on now. She would constantly complain and still to this day. She would never understand how hurtful and upset she would make me feel by saying that to me.

I am now at my largest weight and my friend was starting a new weight loss program and suggested I come with her. I had always been to weight watchers. So I decided to come with her and for the first few weeks I was doing good but I just wasn't ready or into it, so I quit and then come to find out im pregnant again. Luckily with this pregnancy I did not put on alot of weight so once I had him it wasn't as hard to take off. Unfortunately I didn't take off anymore than the pregnancy weight. 3 years go by and im married and number 3 baby is on the way. I've maintained my weight pretty much over the years not really going up or down.

Then the divorce comes and some very unfortunate situations happen in my life and my way of dealing with it is eating and eating. So the weight piles on and of course if you have ever been an overweight person you know how hard it is to take off the weight but how easy it is to put back on. It's like I can look at a chocolate bar and I gain 5 pounds.

So between 2007 and 2009 im fluctuating between 250-260 pounds and I had never ever been past 250 and I was struggling over the years with this but still wasnt ready to do anything about it, fix the problem. Until Dec 2009 and Jan 2010 when I was given the opportunity of a lifetime and became very sick.

From Jan 2010 til July 2010 I have lost 65 pounds but I am at a stand still I am stuck, actually I am at my up and down point. I jump daily from 1 pound up 2 down 2 up 1 down its a freaking roller coaster of weight loss and it's so annoying and frusterating. I no it's normal and I no I will get past this hump.

The funny thing is that everyone of late has been complimenting me on how good I look, have I lost some more weight. I tell them no, my friend says have I checked my measurements lately because you are looking so good. So I don't know if my scale is wrong and my measuring tape is wrong or my friends need glasses but whatever it is I thank them and accept all the compliments.

The one thing I no for sure whether or not I jump u p a pound or two or drop down a pound or two this time I will not give up like I have in the past. I am determined to meet my goal weight and keep it off. I definately needed this kick in the pants and reality check.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Puppy and passions

I was attending a former employees retirement party on Friday and people asked me many questions about my weight loss. I of course was thrilled with explaining my success to people along with all the compliments I recieved on my new look. I also was talking about my new puppy.

So my new puppy, let me tell you all about her and what the heck does this have to do with my weight loss. Let me tell you, Sadie inspires me to go for a walk. In the beginning I would say to the kids we need to start walking everyday, keep in shape, keep them active but that didn't last long. When we got the puppy I told the kids that now for sure we need to get out and walk her. Now we do walk her not everyday but more than we were going out ourselves. As far as losing weight on a budget I would not recommend going out and buy a dog, as they are expensive. I was lucky to get her for nothing. What I would recommend is finding your inspiration to stay healthy, to continue to workout, and eat better and the weight will come off.

There are times in the past 7 months where I have gone through some bad days and some bad weeks. For me I only get discouraged if I gain but for the most part I maintain the weight and then get back on track.

There are times in our life where things could stop us from our routine and I'm in that boat right now. Kids are home from school because of the summer holidays and I am having a hard time with my schedule and my routine has been turned upside down. So if I can't workout at the gym what is a girl to do. Well we all know I am going to be getting my aquafit certification so I can practice at home my routine and that is a workout, of course I can now walk my new puppy, or find some exercises can do at home.

So not only do I have a new love for my new puppy and my workouts but I also have a new passion for photography. Check out my facebook photos and see some of my work.

I know this post was kind of random things, enjoy

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Mini Goal reached

I know it has been awhile since my last post but with the kids now home from school I havent had alot of time to get on the computer and write, but here i am today.

For those of you who are not on my facebook friends list will not know and why i'm writing today but I have reached FINALLY my mini goal. All I have wanted for so long was to be under 200 pounds. I weighed myself last week and reached that goal, yes I stepped on that dreaded scale and was shocked to see 199 pounds. I called my kids to show them and to make sure I was seeing what I was seeing. They cheered for me and I promised when I reached that I would do a dance and I did. Everyone I told I did the 199 dance.

For the past month I have struggled. Not so much with my diet or exercising but just being able to drop the weight. I was at a stand still. No matter what I did I couldn't get that 1 pound off. I tried everything, I changed my exercising routine, I changed some of my diet and eating habits but nothing was working. Now the good thing was I wasn't putting it back on I was maintaining and that for anyone who has tried to lose weight is still a good thing. For me it was frusterating. I so wanted to be under the 200 mark. To be honest I don't know what it was that finally made me drop that 1 pound but I did it and I look and feel great.

I have not weighed under 200 pounds in probably 20 yrs. At least since before I got pregnant with my older son. WOW unbelievable and how unhelathy I was.

Even though I get discouraged at times this small well I guess not small accomplishment makes me keep going and to never give up because I no I can do it.

My doctor and I have discussed the possibilities of having surgury at the end of all this to help alleviate the hanging skin and to get off some of the weight. I can not afford it but there are some reasons the government (ohip) will cover it. I.E (existing back problems, diabetes, rashes, how low the hang is) fortunately for me I have all these issues. So i'm hoping it will be covered. I go to see the surgeon on Aug 5th so I will keep everyone posted on this.

Thank you to all of my supporters and friends. You guys help me get through my low times with your kind words and support. If I can inspire just one person then this is worth it.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

1000 pound woman

So you are probably wondering about the title, well let me explain.

I was on facebook yesterday morning and looking at the home page and saw my radio station posted something so I always like to read there updates and was in shock at what I was reading.

So there is this woman who weighs 600 llbs now and is looking to reach 1000 llbs. WHY, WHAT is this woman thinking and why on earth are we giving her the attention. Can any of us say fame, fortune, publicity stunt.

Of course I must comment on this status and like many are outraged at this. I said why not focus on someone who is trying to better themselves, not someone who is harming themselves. Many agree with me and seems to be the consensus that this woman is harming herself and then come to find out she has children, 2 babies. Why would she do this to herself and her family.

I decided I need to distance myself from this and get ready for the gym.

Boys and I are driving to the school and what do I hear, my radio station talking about this on the radio now. Not only talking about it but they were actually talking with her. They were reading the posts from the web and how most listeners are disgusted but they will be talking with her again tomorrow.

There is also a web site dedicated to BBW's and of course she is on there. It is for men who love her and love her rolls (her quote). It is pictures of BBW eating, pictures of there rolls, etc. Ok so this is my thought I have been a BBW all my life and yes there are men out there who like us for us but really there are limits and boundaries as woman we should take. I get it that we should love ourselves for us but to flaunt it like that and to purposely try to gain weight is wrong. Would she feel the same way about someone who is anorexic or belimic (sorry for spelling) I bet she doesn't agree with that.

Anyways I guess she gets what she wants as I am here writing this blog technically about her and not my successes so lets turn the tables on something good and personal.

I am so close to my mini goal I can taste it. I stepped on the scale and I was 200 and I can not tell you the last time I was that let alone under 200 and I am 1 pound from that goal and to me making history in my life. My family and friends are behind and feels great to have such an awesome support system. Even my oldest son is supprtive and encouraging me and that means alot as we have struggled over the past few years with our relationship. So I guess in a sense another goal is being met.

My other goal is to get started volunteering at Y and that is soon coming to reality. I have done some of the paperwork involved. So I am close. Things just seem to be falling into place and I'm so happy about life right now.

THanks again to my readers, followers and supporters. You are greatly appreciated.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Finances 2 and weight loss

I wrote a blog recently about finances and trying to lose weight and I thought of some other things that have helped me and hopefully can help you.

One word WATER: I know that alot of people don't like to drink water but it is calorie free and proven to work when trying to lose weight. Regardless if you are or not tryign to lose weight it is something our body needs on a daily basis so why not drink it. Especially if you are working out and sweating you need to drink lots of water to recover the fluids lost while working out. Trust me I know I have been foolish at times to forget my water and have paid for it. On the financial part of it you can buy cases of water quite cheap now. Again look for the sales. Actually the cheaper the bottled water is better then nestle purelife and of course it is cheaper. I know what they say about tap water but it doesn't bother me I just let it run for awhile and i'm healthy. Again it is a personal preference.  I remember when I was doing weight watchers they suggested 8 glasses of water a day of 8 ounce glasses, now I don't think I'm drinking quite that much now but I am drinking alot more water again since I started this life change.

Label reader: I was never a label reader and even now I don't go about my shopping obsessed reading the labels to see how many calories or sugar are in a serving of something. I do tend to look at a label if it is something new i'm buying and mostly looking at the sugar content because I am a diabetic. I think that soem of what they put on the labels is not necessary all true. Remember just because it says light doesn't necessary mean it is better for you. So if you want to check out the labels on everything you buy and you feel ok with it by all means do so for me it is not a concern.

Cheating: How many of us struggle with weight in our society, I believe it is a large amount and I believe that we are human and all have that moment of I want that bag of chips or chocolate bar. It is ok we are human please don't look at it as cheating. We are aloud to endulge ourselves once in awhile. If it becomes more often than not then make a call to your support system that's what they are there for. Please don't beat yourself up about it either we have all had those moments. IT'S NORMAL

Restaurants and portions: So when dieting we can't avoid restaurants or special occasions. We all deserve a treat. So if you choose to be good at a restaurant then that's great but when we want to just go out and enjoy and not worry about that diet for one time then do so. If you want to be good and bad a little then most restaurants give such large portion sizes then use then best restaurant invention the doggy bag, then take the other half home and have for lunch the next day. Or just go for it and eat it all and have that dessert this time and get back to the diet the next day you deserve it. We all do every once inawhile.

Good luck and hope this helps. Let me know your successes and comment here.

Friday, June 4, 2010


So this blog is about Finances and losing weight on a budget. Which is pretty much what i have done as I am a single mom on a assistance.

I had quit my job in December due to my back injury and my unemployment ran out so I was forced to go on a assistance to support my children. The worker was excellent and she was very helpful with suggestions for my back and suggested I join the Y and that it would be covered by them. So I contemplated that as I have never been interested in working out but of course would like to not be in pain all the time and lose weight. Well then January came and I became very sick. So I couldn't even get out of bed some days and was in the hospital several times in that month.

When I was finally able to get up and do some things I headed to the Y to start our memberships and my life change. When I stepped on the scale for the first time I had lost 20 pounds (which I would not recommend doing it that way but unfortunately thats how my journey started). This is when I decided that I can do it and I am going to do it.

So I started working out at the gym and my membership was covered through the ontario works but I was also granted a discount because I am low income and you don't have to be just on assistance to get the discount, if interested in a gym membership and think you can't afford it go and talk to them and see if you can get some assistance, no harm in asking them they are quite friendly and willing to help.

I have also been a junk food junkie and knew I needed to cut these things out and so were my children and they were so helpful and willing to help there mom and themselves get healthy. So we cut out all the junk food buying which saves alot of money trust me on this. We started to buy more healthy foods, like fruits and vegetables with in our budget but really we were saving because of the junk food. As well a huge savings for me was portion control. If i'm eating less food then it will last longer in the fridge unless of course it goes bad before that. Lol. Also it also depends on the grocery store you are shopping at there alot of deals so look for them reading all the flyers for the sales. If you have to make a few trips it will be worth it in the end unless you don't drive but there is help out there I have great support system which is a key as well.

One of my biggest things was eating breakfast I never liked to it was to hard to do because getting the kids ready there was never enough time. Make the time it's important. You want to make sure you have a protein in the morning. Whether it's toast with some peanut butter, eggs or I would make a smoothie. I would put some yogurt, 1 egg (you can't taste it) a banana or whatever fruit i had and smash it all up and it was so good. 1 way to get me to have yogurt. If you can afford to there are as well protein mix and you can add that as well or add some milk play with it for what you like trust me i did and don't try watermelon not good.

Then for me I have a bigger lunch to satisfy me and a snack around 3 and then for supper I will have my smoothie and that's it for the day. Now of course this may not work for everyone my friend can't do this routine but it works for me and what works for her. Why you need to do what is best for you. I have played around with it for months and of course it will change if going out for supper or lunch as we all need a special treat. We are only human.

I do what I can with what I have and it has worked so far for me. Another tip I have been taking apple cidar vinegar vitamins they are also a antioxidant and they help with weight loss and breaking down your food. You can get them at wal mart for about 8 bucks.

I hope some of this has helped, thanks always for your support.

Sunday, May 23, 2010


Before I start out with my post for today I want to thank my dear friend for giving me some advice to make my blog more appealing and interesting to my viewers. So I thank her for that.

Thursday I went into my old store as I needed some clothes and ran into a few more people that had not seen me in awhile and the compliments I recieved was so great and almost overwhelming it blew me away. I thank all of them for that great responce to my success.

I specifically was looking for an old employee that day as she is an avid blogger, so I had asked her previously for some advice and I wanted to give her my information so she could check this out.

So we were talking and she was happy I gave her the information and would be checking it out this weekend, so I hope she hasn't visited already because this is in part to you C.L thank you.

Friday was going to be my third aquafit class shadowing the instructor, but this time I decided I would be beside her because I feel more comfortable. I was even feeling that if she was alittle late (which she sometimes can be) that I could start the class out myslef. She was on time, I did let her know that I had hurt my back again and I would be doing the class at a lower impact. Especially since i'm not on a mat but on the concrete.

The other person that is learning along with me was there as well and she was going to be leading part of the class, she has done the instructional part where I have not done so yet. So just before the instructor was going to change her music she asked if I would like to take over and this time I did not hesitate. I jumped at the chance and I went for it. I was awesome if i do say so myself. I was loud, funny, correct and friendly. We finished up with class and I immediately went to thank everyone for coming with a smile on my face.

I wasn't able to discuss with the instructor how i did as she was quite bust after, so I headed upstairs to do my weight training and one of the fitness instructors stopped me and she said I was watching you and you did a great job down there. I thanked her and continued to workout.

I left the gym and wasn't able to talk with her so I had to go back to the store to make a return and was talking with the blogger girl and she was like WOW your legs are amazing they are so skinny and toned. She asked how much it was I had lost and I told it was up to 55 pounds now she was like you look good. I didn't recognize you from behind either. I told her if I could just lose the tummy I would be happy. As we all know we loose where we might not need to. That is true for me, but at least it is a loss somewhere and the tummy will go down.

Saturday I really wanted to talk with the instructor and she was really busy but I did manage to sneak a quick chat with her. I asked her how I did and she told me I did great. She told me that she was going to be there next week but not the two after that. She said if I could I would get you to cover me but because I am not yet certified she can;t get me to cover. She said you are ready to do a class. So I asked what the next step was. She needs to get me the material, read it over take some quizzes, then do a class, evaluate me and then certify me. I'm like cool are you sure i'm ready she said yes you did great.

Yeah for me and I love it I can't wait to get training done and do my own class.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

doctor visit

Today was annual check up but i think really it has been more than a year from the last one. I weighted in and i had lost 5 more pounds from the last visit. I go in usually every two weeks but it had been 3 because i had already had this physical booked.

 So i have this bet with my kids everytime i go for a weigh in to see how  much i have lost, we all pick a number of weight we think i have loss. Now the receptionist is aware of the bet and will often ask me who won this time.

So my youngest said 4 middle said 5 and i said 6 only because thats really what i wanted but didnt think i had so my middle son won.

So the doctor was going over my progress and my blood work etc and she was flipping through pages in my chart and saying im just looking for something. So i sitting there on the table in the lovely gowns they give you lol and im waiting and she turns to me and says the lowest weight i have for you on file is 224 and that was in 1994, im like wow. That was 3 yrs after my oldest was born. She said you have broken that record as i am now 211 on her scale of course because all scales are different.

I have not been this low in obvioulsy a long time and i am so happy and proud of myself. I must it is awesome and i must thank all of my friends and supporters for you i dont think i could continue well maybe this time i could but thanks.

So the doctor and i were discussing this blog and how i have started it and i dont have alot of followers yet but were working on that. As well its not all about the following its the inspiration as well and i think i hope i am doing that for many people if not one person. I discussed as well my volunteer work at the Y and the possibilities it could lead into for me.

Which i never thought i would say im actually loving the time i spend there along with my two volunteer experiences. I have spent most of my working life in retail and to think of venturing out there in unknown charters is scary but exciting because i do love it so much. Me Dana the fat girl the lazy girl who would never think of excerizing let alone going to a gym and working out or even going for a walk with her kids but yes i am now doing it and i cant say it enough i love it.

I did i think overdue it the other day as i have been in pain from the lower back down to my legs. I mean excrutiating pain. For those of you who dont know i have a bad back to begin with i have a bulging disc and really why i left my former job. With time it has gotten better AQUAFIT a huge part of it healing but unfortunately with this injury it is always there just depends if i can live with it and be pain free or not. I could do the smallest thing and screw it up again which is what i beleive i have done. Yes it could also be the mattress i sleep on is doing it as well. Who knows but i have messed it up so i am taking it easy right now, that doesnt mean i stop the exercizing i do it in moderation and stretching it out as well. I also continue to eat properly especially if i cant move well and exercize as much as i want to right now. So i do what i can right now at the gym.

So all in all my doctor visit was a huge success and she even wanted to photocopy my weight chart for me. I didnt say anything to her but i was thinking it i know the success i am having i dont need the chart but it was a nice thought.

Saturday, May 15, 2010


So yesterday was my second day volunteering at the gym. I was to be shadowing the fitness coordinator so i was pretty nervous about doing so. I decided to mirror her from across the pool. This time i decided to wear shorts and put my hair up because it is so hot in the pool area, as well i brought water with me and a towel.

So we started out slow and i was keeping up with her and its going great. I also didnt get the weird looks from the members so it was good time so far. I was feeling so great i decided to join her right beside her and at first she thought i was leaving or stopping but i whispered im joining you.

 So i continued going with her and got some smiles from people and she says about a few minutes after i joined her, can you continue for me while i change me like oooohhhhhh ooooookkkkkk.

So i continued what she was doing and went with it. I smiled, i talked a little bit but mostly i was nervous as heck because i was just thrown into it and didnt know what exactly i should do. She came back and we started to dance.

She does Zumba for the last 10 minutes of the class which is alot of fun and people look forward to it.

The class finished and we went over to where everyone comes out of the pool and greeted people. After most were out she gave me and the other girl some advice. She said the number one thing she can tell us is greet people coming out of the pool. It seperates the good intructor from the bad you can have a not so good routine but friendlyness is a key to success.

I asked if we could talk for abit and we headed to her office and she told i will do fine i have rythm and personality. So i asked her some of my questions that i had. She answered them, i pretty much knew the answers but i wanted some tips. She told me that she is working with me backwards in a sense because i have already done the shadowing part but i need to the paper part etc. So she is going to give me some papers next week and gave me some websites to check out as well she trusted me with her music.

It was a good day

Friday, May 14, 2010


So when you are trying to loose weight do you ever get frustrated?

 I no i do i think that we are only human if we do. Its normal and there are many things to get frustrated over.


I think we ask ourselves this question probably the most, why is the weight not coming off. For many of us struggling with weight loss its a normal question and normal for at times the weight to not come off, but dont let this discourage you or stop you from achieving your goals. For me i tend to fall into stages and i loose a bunch of weight very quickly when i first out and then it starts to slide or taper off. I could go for a few weeks or days not losing anything but i think that this could not be im doing everything the same. So i decided to keep track of my measurements and sure enough the weight wasnt coming off but the inches were. Which leads me into the next frustration.


Another question we ask ourselves while trying to loose weight. Am i losing inches off my body because im not seeing it. Alot of times we dont see it but others do see it. Trust me from experience its coming off keep track of it. You dont have to do anything elaborate just keep it on a word program or in a journal. Dont become obsessive with it but check it once a week or two or even once a month. Same goes for that scale it could become your worst nightmare. Again trust me sometimes im on it daily and other times i avoid it like the plague. Especially when you are weighing yourself on different scales. Which i am right now, i actually am weighing myself on 3 scales and all are different, my home scale, Y scale and the doctor scale. I do have records from all three scales on my computer so i no the weight loss from all three.


Unfortunately this happens to all of this. I think the exact same thing and it happens to me as well. I dont need to loose it in my legs but the first place i do loose is yes my legs.
This post was inspired by my dear friend and she is working so hard along with me most days, but the weight just isnt coming off for her and yet she is looking so good you can see that she is losing its just not reflecting on that scale.

My advice is dont give up but maybe change something in your routine, ask around for advice, talk to others, read these posts lol but most of all dont give up.

Friday, May 7, 2010


So after that awful comment from that woman i have rised above her and overcome and will not let her put me down or break me. 

I had so many repsonces positive ones in retro spec to her comments and it boosted my confidence and reassured me as to why i am doing this. So i thank all of you for supporting me.

So today i was to shadow one of the instructors during aquafit. I was told to wear black pants, running shoes and my new volunteer Ymca tshirt. Which i did and my plan was to just watch and take notes and then discuss with Y personal later. When i got there i was talking with the instructor i decided to mirror her, she taught at one end of pool and i would be at the opposite end of her. This way the class could not see me unless she turned them around in the pool.

So decided i would feel comfortable enough to do that. So class started and im moving along and keeping up and im realizing how hot it is in the pool area, you dont notice it as much when you have bathing suit on, and you head straight into the pool. When your doing the class your out of the pool the entire time and i repeat it is hot in there.

 So about ten minutes into this im starting to feel very hot and sweaty. Im like i got to keep it up and show them i can do this for of the BBW out there, This is for us. About half way through i couldnt take it anymore and i went and got a drink in the locker room. Came back and contuinued on but man oh man did i sweat.

From the looks on some peoples faces I was not well recieved and then others were happy to see me there which was refreshing.

I have alot of questions that i want to go over with the coordinator and i have been working on a routine so that im ready for a class. I have it written down and in my head but i would like to practice it in the water so i can see time wise how long i have and if i need to add more.

It was fun, alot of work and i really and truly enjoyed myself.

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

searching for the right words and ignorant people

So i have been struggling with my next post as it seems i have no followers yet and not many people have read my blog so im playing around with it to see how to get followers and let my friends know its out here etc.

Im not looking for fame or fortune from this i am looking to help women and men who have struggled with weight all there lives as i have and that it can be done and you dont have to spend alot of money doing so. As i am a single mom on government assistance right now.

So i finally came up with my next topic from yesterdays visit out shopping.

I worked for four years at a thrift store in my city and recently had to leave that job due to non work related injury, but i do go in there and shop alot to visit and the clothes are cheaper if i was to go retail. So i have been in there alot more recently because i am forever donating back to that store my larger clothes because they just dont fit anymore and i need new ones and im kind of in between sizes.

 I have gone from a 24-26 in pants and shirts to anywhere from a 14-18 depending on the brand and style. Which to me is alot and im sorry im looking and feeling great. So im at the checkout counter i hadnt found anything that visit but was talking to a current employee there and she made the comment im here alot more. SO i said well im widdling away to nothing i need new clothes. Her responce to me was "YOU ARE FAR FROM NOTHING". At the time i fluffed it off but as i got out of the store and thought to myself exactly what she said i was terribly insulted and hurt. Im sorry but losing 50 pounds is a big deal as my friends im sure could atest to.

So i posted this comment on my facebook profile and i have been getting nothing but positive comments back from my friends and how dare she.

To all of you haters out there of larger woman and who cannot be a positive person all i have to say is well honestly i cant say what i want to say so i will say this we are big beautiful women and if we choose to stay this way none of your business and if we choose to do something about it dont say a word because you will find a way to put us down.

To all of my supporters you rock and i thank you

Monday, May 3, 2010

gym workouts

Today i started out slow as i had a later night for myself but i remember how i feel after i finish my workouts. So i got up and got myself out the door and headed to the gym. I missed aquafit so i decided to head upstairs and walk the track. It was my arms day so i decided that i would try something new while i walked. I finished my 12 laps and decided i would grab some weights and walk. So i started out and walked while i did some bicep curls etc. I walked 6 laps around the track while doing the weights and felt great i could have kept going but i wanted to get my other weight training in so i finished up and headed downstairs to the weight floor.

I started out on my least favourite machine my friend calls the butterfly and then headed to my favourite machines, finished them up and then did my free weights. I didnt think i would enjoy so much but i truely enjoy doing the free weights almost as much as the machines.

I finished up my program and was feeling fabulous.

I sit here and think to myself how did i get to this point in my life after so long of being overweight and now im here losing this weight and trying to help other people. As well as starting to do volunteer work and considering employment at the gym. never in a million years would i have thought me Dana would want this so bad and love what i am doing. I guess it was the right time in my life.

Sunday, May 2, 2010


So yesterday i went to the Y for my workout and i walked the track doing my twelve laps which is equivilant to a mile. Listening to my tunes and power walking around the track thinking about what the doctor and i discussed about me blogging about my success with my wieght loss. How do i go about doing so and what do i talk about having never done this before. So i thought i just be honest and tell people how i did it and how i continue to do so.

So i finished my cardio workout and head downstairs to the weight floor and start to do my weights and im loving my new workout plan that i changed recently. I do my legs and core one day and the next day i do my arms.

There is one thing i learned while working out that you should never focus on the same area everyday as you are tearing your muscles and they need time to heal so you should split your muscles groups into two different days.

So im working hard on my legs and core yesterday and im feeling so good and sweating buckets from the workout. Remembering also what i was told about increasing weights instead of sets. Instead of doing more sets in your 3 set rotation per weight machine, means that you are ready to increase your weights. So if you are doing 40 pounds then increase by 5 pounds and stay with this for a few weeks.

I pretend not to know everything about weight loss or weight training i am just giving you guys the knowledge i have learned so far over the past few months.

I hope that with my volunteer work that i am starting this week, that i will learn more and gain some more knowledge for myself and for my friends.

So i left the Y feeling so great, refreshed, focused and could take on the world.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

First blog

Hi there everyone this is my first blog ever. I was at my doctors yesterday for my two week weigh in and we discussed my success and she suggested i write a blog about how i have lost my weight so here i am.

I have struggled with my weight since as long as i can remember. I have done all the diets out there been through many weight loss programs and i loose then gain all back. I have three kids and of course alot of baby weight left. Im telling you ladies and gentlemen you have to be in the right place in your life to want to loose weight and i am in that place now.

At the end of december 2009 i was at my highest weight in my life 260 pounds.

In January i became very sick and was in the hospital several times, medicatiosn after medications and different things happening in that month and ended up losing 20 pounds. As well I was talking to my worker and she suggested i start going to the YMCA to help out with my weight and my back problem. So at the end of January i started to go to the Y and workout and watch what i eat.

For the past 4 months i have been faithfully going to the YMCA and working out. I have started doing aquafit, zumba, treadmills, and walking the track. As well i do weight training everyday.

I have watched what i eat, eating less portion sizes, making fruit protein smoothies.

As of next week i will also be volunteering at the Ymca and so looking forward to it.

Since January i have lost a total of 50 pounds and i am feeling and looking great.

I want to do this to help get advice give advice to all of my BBW friends out there that have been there at some point in there life and support each other.