Monday, November 1, 2010

Motivation

I know that it has been a long time since I have made my last post but here I am today writing this post. I have kind of been in a slump lately and not quite sure why, I mean there have been some reasons why I couldn't go to the gym one day but other times I just haven't felt like it and that't not what I want to portray to my kids or to my followers. The summer kind of started it, the boys not wanting to spend 2 hours a day at the gym while mommy works out. Now don't let me portray them as not supportive because they are, it's just they had some issues with other kids and kind of put them off of coming to the Y. So then of course other things come up that are personal that couldn't be avoided so I couldn't make it to the gym. My weight though did stay steady I at least managed to stay at my goal weight, neither going up or down. So that was a good thing because I continued to eat healthy. I also did continue to volunteer at the gym working on the desk and doing my aquafit every friday with the program director.

So September comes along and it's back to school time so I'm busy getting the boys settled into there new school so the first week I think I managed to make it to the gym 2 days and both those days I was volunteering so only working out once in a week. When for months I was use to working out almost everyday what a change and my body was definately feeling it. So for the month of September things just kept coming up and making it very difficult to go and work out but I would at least try to make it on Wednesday to volunteer and then on Friday  for aquafiit as I'm still trying to get certified. So maybe working out 2-3 times a week which is better than nothing.

I was talking with this lady from the Y who is a member as well and we were discussing her week and how she had, had a bad week and she felt she had cheated on her diet. I told her its not cheating we are human and aloud to have a few moments of weakness. If it continues to use her support system and she said thank you but she really doesn't have much of a support system as her parents buy her alot of the things she ate. That her support is people at the Y, so I suggested she go and check out my blog. Then I realized I'm telling her everything I know and maybe I should take my own advice that I just gave her. So a few days later she came to me and said Dana I just read your blog last night and you have given me so much inspiration and determination to get back to. Which of course I then realized she was my inspiration to get back to it again. Then I realized it wasn't just her that I inspired to get back to it it was me. I inpsired myself, somewhat of a kick in the ass.

October comes and i'm gun ho on getting back into my routine I developed back in Febuary. So Monday comes and I have a child home sick, REALLY ARE YOU KIDDING ME. Tuesday comes and everything is good to go and have an amazing workout in the pool but I still have no motivation to go upstairs and do the weights but I figure right now if I get my cardio in im better off than I was all of September. Week goes by and I was there everyday working out. Woo hoo I felt great.

While I was working on the desk one day An old friend had come in and we were both surprised to see each other let alone at the gym. I came around the counter and we both were amazed at how well we both looked she had lost some weight as well. So I invited her to check out my blog as well. Then a few minutes later another person I hadn't seen in a few years came in and we got to talking and catching up and I invited her to come out on Friday to my aquafit.

So Friday comes along and I had to be in the pool that day as they were certifying another instructor so we were talking and working out and then continued to talk after and we talked more about what she had been up to over the last few years. We realized that we had a common interest, well not so much interest but a common factor I guess you would call it. Anyways I continued to run into her and one day she was like oh I don't want to go upstairs and workout and I told I know the feeling I have been there a few times. I told her my story about the other Y woman and she motivated me along with my blog address.

I haven't seen her since I gave her the blog address so I can't wait to find out what she thought and I hope it helped her.

I apoligize to all my supporters and friends for not being on here and posting anything recently and I promise that I will be on here more often again posting.

Thank you for all your support friends and family

Thursday, August 26, 2010

Up and Down

Ups and Downs of weight loss. Is it normal or not normal?

I think for most it is normal. It is something that every person trying to lose weight goes through and for some they never recover.

I remember when I was a teenager I joined weight watchers at my moms school, we would meet after school. There were bunch of us about 15 men and women and I was one of 3 people who reached there goal weight. I was so happy.

It didn't take long for me once I was out of the program that I started to put the weight back on. Weight loss programs are great when you are going through the battle to lose the weight but once you have reached your goals then boom they turn there back on you. They disappear, gone in a flash.

So once again I put all the weight back on and now I was pregnant with my first child. For most overweight women it is also alot harder to lose the weight let alone any baby weight you have gained. So here I was after my baby was born at a even higher weight than before. So back to the drawing board and another weight loss clinic. This time I went with my mom and her friend. Once again I was the one to lose the weight I didn't reach my goal but I was the closest.

I told you that the last 2 times I went with my mom to these programs and the funny thing about that is my mom is 5 feet if that and weighs soaking wet 120. Yet here I am 5'2 and weighing over 200 pounds. I had to live with my mom complaining all these years how FAT she was. Really come on now. She would constantly complain and still to this day. She would never understand how hurtful and upset she would make me feel by saying that to me.

I am now at my largest weight and my friend was starting a new weight loss program and suggested I come with her. I had always been to weight watchers. So I decided to come with her and for the first few weeks I was doing good but I just wasn't ready or into it, so I quit and then come to find out im pregnant again. Luckily with this pregnancy I did not put on alot of weight so once I had him it wasn't as hard to take off. Unfortunately I didn't take off anymore than the pregnancy weight. 3 years go by and im married and number 3 baby is on the way. I've maintained my weight pretty much over the years not really going up or down.

Then the divorce comes and some very unfortunate situations happen in my life and my way of dealing with it is eating and eating. So the weight piles on and of course if you have ever been an overweight person you know how hard it is to take off the weight but how easy it is to put back on. It's like I can look at a chocolate bar and I gain 5 pounds.

So between 2007 and 2009 im fluctuating between 250-260 pounds and I had never ever been past 250 and I was struggling over the years with this but still wasnt ready to do anything about it, fix the problem. Until Dec 2009 and Jan 2010 when I was given the opportunity of a lifetime and became very sick.

From Jan 2010 til July 2010 I have lost 65 pounds but I am at a stand still I am stuck, actually I am at my up and down point. I jump daily from 1 pound up 2 down 2 up 1 down its a freaking roller coaster of weight loss and it's so annoying and frusterating. I no it's normal and I no I will get past this hump.

The funny thing is that everyone of late has been complimenting me on how good I look, have I lost some more weight. I tell them no, my friend says have I checked my measurements lately because you are looking so good. So I don't know if my scale is wrong and my measuring tape is wrong or my friends need glasses but whatever it is I thank them and accept all the compliments.

The one thing I no for sure whether or not I jump u p a pound or two or drop down a pound or two this time I will not give up like I have in the past. I am determined to meet my goal weight and keep it off. I definately needed this kick in the pants and reality check.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Puppy and passions

I was attending a former employees retirement party on Friday and people asked me many questions about my weight loss. I of course was thrilled with explaining my success to people along with all the compliments I recieved on my new look. I also was talking about my new puppy.

So my new puppy, let me tell you all about her and what the heck does this have to do with my weight loss. Let me tell you, Sadie inspires me to go for a walk. In the beginning I would say to the kids we need to start walking everyday, keep in shape, keep them active but that didn't last long. When we got the puppy I told the kids that now for sure we need to get out and walk her. Now we do walk her not everyday but more than we were going out ourselves. As far as losing weight on a budget I would not recommend going out and buy a dog, as they are expensive. I was lucky to get her for nothing. What I would recommend is finding your inspiration to stay healthy, to continue to workout, and eat better and the weight will come off.

There are times in the past 7 months where I have gone through some bad days and some bad weeks. For me I only get discouraged if I gain but for the most part I maintain the weight and then get back on track.

There are times in our life where things could stop us from our routine and I'm in that boat right now. Kids are home from school because of the summer holidays and I am having a hard time with my schedule and my routine has been turned upside down. So if I can't workout at the gym what is a girl to do. Well we all know I am going to be getting my aquafit certification so I can practice at home my routine and that is a workout, of course I can now walk my new puppy, or find some exercises can do at home.

So not only do I have a new love for my new puppy and my workouts but I also have a new passion for photography. Check out my facebook photos and see some of my work.

I know this post was kind of random things, enjoy

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Mini Goal reached

I know it has been awhile since my last post but with the kids now home from school I havent had alot of time to get on the computer and write, but here i am today.

For those of you who are not on my facebook friends list will not know and why i'm writing today but I have reached FINALLY my mini goal. All I have wanted for so long was to be under 200 pounds. I weighed myself last week and reached that goal, yes I stepped on that dreaded scale and was shocked to see 199 pounds. I called my kids to show them and to make sure I was seeing what I was seeing. They cheered for me and I promised when I reached that I would do a dance and I did. Everyone I told I did the 199 dance.

For the past month I have struggled. Not so much with my diet or exercising but just being able to drop the weight. I was at a stand still. No matter what I did I couldn't get that 1 pound off. I tried everything, I changed my exercising routine, I changed some of my diet and eating habits but nothing was working. Now the good thing was I wasn't putting it back on I was maintaining and that for anyone who has tried to lose weight is still a good thing. For me it was frusterating. I so wanted to be under the 200 mark. To be honest I don't know what it was that finally made me drop that 1 pound but I did it and I look and feel great.

I have not weighed under 200 pounds in probably 20 yrs. At least since before I got pregnant with my older son. WOW unbelievable and how unhelathy I was.

Even though I get discouraged at times this small well I guess not small accomplishment makes me keep going and to never give up because I no I can do it.

My doctor and I have discussed the possibilities of having surgury at the end of all this to help alleviate the hanging skin and to get off some of the weight. I can not afford it but there are some reasons the government (ohip) will cover it. I.E (existing back problems, diabetes, rashes, how low the hang is) fortunately for me I have all these issues. So i'm hoping it will be covered. I go to see the surgeon on Aug 5th so I will keep everyone posted on this.

Thank you to all of my supporters and friends. You guys help me get through my low times with your kind words and support. If I can inspire just one person then this is worth it.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

1000 pound woman

So you are probably wondering about the title, well let me explain.

I was on facebook yesterday morning and looking at the home page and saw my radio station posted something so I always like to read there updates and was in shock at what I was reading.

So there is this woman who weighs 600 llbs now and is looking to reach 1000 llbs. WHY, WHAT is this woman thinking and why on earth are we giving her the attention. Can any of us say fame, fortune, publicity stunt.

Of course I must comment on this status and like many are outraged at this. I said why not focus on someone who is trying to better themselves, not someone who is harming themselves. Many agree with me and seems to be the consensus that this woman is harming herself and then come to find out she has children, 2 babies. Why would she do this to herself and her family.

I decided I need to distance myself from this and get ready for the gym.

Boys and I are driving to the school and what do I hear, my radio station talking about this on the radio now. Not only talking about it but they were actually talking with her. They were reading the posts from the web and how most listeners are disgusted but they will be talking with her again tomorrow.

There is also a web site dedicated to BBW's and of course she is on there. It is for men who love her and love her rolls (her quote). It is pictures of BBW eating, pictures of there rolls, etc. Ok so this is my thought I have been a BBW all my life and yes there are men out there who like us for us but really there are limits and boundaries as woman we should take. I get it that we should love ourselves for us but to flaunt it like that and to purposely try to gain weight is wrong. Would she feel the same way about someone who is anorexic or belimic (sorry for spelling) I bet she doesn't agree with that.

Anyways I guess she gets what she wants as I am here writing this blog technically about her and not my successes so lets turn the tables on something good and personal.

I am so close to my mini goal I can taste it. I stepped on the scale and I was 200 and I can not tell you the last time I was that let alone under 200 and I am 1 pound from that goal and to me making history in my life. My family and friends are behind and feels great to have such an awesome support system. Even my oldest son is supprtive and encouraging me and that means alot as we have struggled over the past few years with our relationship. So I guess in a sense another goal is being met.

My other goal is to get started volunteering at Y and that is soon coming to reality. I have done some of the paperwork involved. So I am close. Things just seem to be falling into place and I'm so happy about life right now.

THanks again to my readers, followers and supporters. You are greatly appreciated.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Finances 2 and weight loss

I wrote a blog recently about finances and trying to lose weight and I thought of some other things that have helped me and hopefully can help you.

One word WATER: I know that alot of people don't like to drink water but it is calorie free and proven to work when trying to lose weight. Regardless if you are or not tryign to lose weight it is something our body needs on a daily basis so why not drink it. Especially if you are working out and sweating you need to drink lots of water to recover the fluids lost while working out. Trust me I know I have been foolish at times to forget my water and have paid for it. On the financial part of it you can buy cases of water quite cheap now. Again look for the sales. Actually the cheaper the bottled water is better then nestle purelife and of course it is cheaper. I know what they say about tap water but it doesn't bother me I just let it run for awhile and i'm healthy. Again it is a personal preference.  I remember when I was doing weight watchers they suggested 8 glasses of water a day of 8 ounce glasses, now I don't think I'm drinking quite that much now but I am drinking alot more water again since I started this life change.

Label reader: I was never a label reader and even now I don't go about my shopping obsessed reading the labels to see how many calories or sugar are in a serving of something. I do tend to look at a label if it is something new i'm buying and mostly looking at the sugar content because I am a diabetic. I think that soem of what they put on the labels is not necessary all true. Remember just because it says light doesn't necessary mean it is better for you. So if you want to check out the labels on everything you buy and you feel ok with it by all means do so for me it is not a concern.

Cheating: How many of us struggle with weight in our society, I believe it is a large amount and I believe that we are human and all have that moment of I want that bag of chips or chocolate bar. It is ok we are human please don't look at it as cheating. We are aloud to endulge ourselves once in awhile. If it becomes more often than not then make a call to your support system that's what they are there for. Please don't beat yourself up about it either we have all had those moments. IT'S NORMAL

Restaurants and portions: So when dieting we can't avoid restaurants or special occasions. We all deserve a treat. So if you choose to be good at a restaurant then that's great but when we want to just go out and enjoy and not worry about that diet for one time then do so. If you want to be good and bad a little then most restaurants give such large portion sizes then use then best restaurant invention the doggy bag, then take the other half home and have for lunch the next day. Or just go for it and eat it all and have that dessert this time and get back to the diet the next day you deserve it. We all do every once inawhile.

Good luck and hope this helps. Let me know your successes and comment here.